Life

(Source: drunkonstephen)

This is one of those images that I see and I can’t help but grit my teeth.
Why?

Because how true this statement is and what it represents make my fucking blood boil. 

I think people think I’m lying when I say that all I want is to go to college, all I want is a chance to get my degree and begin doing what it is that I love to do. I have a desire to learn my craft; I have a desire to be really good at it. I don’t (really) want a new car, a pair of crazy expensive shoes, a boob job, anything that you can think of that isn’t a college education you can keep it all just pay my tuition. 

I work at a bank on a university campus. I see people daily waste away the one thing that I truly desire without care. They bitch about expectations that I would work so damn hard to live up to if I only had the chance.

I know that my costume design degree isn’t going to make me a millionaire and I don’t give a damn if my designs ever see the lights of Broadway. I don’t want to be a costume designer for any other reason than when I see what I worked hard on help bring a show to life it makes my heart race and my eyes water. The rush of being back stage during a show is far better than any drug that I’ve done (and believe me I’ve done many). I have a passion for something which is more than I can say for so many people that have the chance to go to college.

The next time you bitch about having to go to school think of those of us that really want to go but just don’t have the chance. 

=End bitter rant.=

(Source: undeadlife)

I have a confession: I’m in love with Texas State University. 

I had one of those moments that everything just felt right from the moment I was on campus. I cannot wait to start school here in the fall. 

On another note however excited I may be to become an official Bobcat I’ve had to accept a very harrowing fact today:

I’m most likely not going to be able to hold a job and dive right into the program. This means the one thing that I did not want, STUDENT LOANS. I wanted to avoid having to get loans because lets be real I’m a design student; once I graduate money will be tight enough as it is without adding a student loan payment on top of it all, but sacrifices must be made I suppose.

I mean, yeah I’m sure I could maybe hold a weekend job somewhere but it won’t be the same. I’ve been working steadily since I was 16 and I had my first job at 12; working is a part of who I am. On top of that, without my job at a bank I will not have benefits at all which is a very scary fact but one I am just going to have to deal with. 

I guess I should make good friends with the debt monster to achieve my dreams… -sigh-